WAD's WRONG WITH ME..??
it's been ages since i've last update this journal. Wonder would i write this for long either. It was meant to update my beloved friends of my current well being.well, i would say.. life is full of ups and downs. I was realli living in heaven some time ago, now i'm coming down the slope. More and more troubles coming; Might be for myself; Might be for others.
1. Just failed a test, which initially weighs some importance in my heart. The moment i realise my mistake, my heart sunk deeply. well, it's over and no point thinking of it. what actually moved me on was the thought of most frenz ard me who also passed the test only on their sec tries(no offence), and those frenz bside me who offer some sweets and snacks / stuff to keep me away from emotions.
2. Well, another thing that makes me quite upset, and which, if i annouce here would seems a great news to all... i've GAIN weight!! sobx.. i tried my best to maintain.. but those snacks are realli tempting and killing me!!
3. The thought of graduating in few mths time really frightens me too. Facing the unexpected future, with the skills i've learnt from poly is realli insufficient. Fierce competition of clinching to a job and getting into a Uni sometimes makes me feel out of place in the society. Guys.. how abt you? Have you make your route? Or is it still early?
4. Infact, i was given a chance to learn some new things and enter the entertainment industry. hMmM.. still deciding, and my interest is there. My greatest consideration is the risk and effort put in. Wonder if i can get anything out of it. And if i do, will it be good or bad? My bro says my age is abit old for this.
5. Had plans to org a chalet. In fact chalet was already booked for my sec sch mates. Unexpectedly, it clashed with my coz sista's wedding and i was also asked to be one of the sistas there. The wedding dinner day happens to be the sec day of the booked chalet and when i requested for a postpone of the chalet, it was too late: All units were taken up. Feeling troubled, had to rush from sentosa all the way to tampines within a nite don't interest me at all. Even quarrelled with mum on this issue, as she insisted that i should be staying at my coz sista's house on the first nite of my chalet, bcoz i was invited. that means to say, although i've booked the chalet, i wouldn't be there to enjoyed.
6. Love relationship might not last, but wonder if friendship really does. One of my closest grp of frenz in poly seems to split in few wks time. miss them so much, seperated by their TEP and my attachment, and so many things happened. They used to discuss things together, but now, they think differently. And worst thing was, none of them seems willing to give way or try to make a better change. One party even tinking the other as the ignorant party, but when i approached them, they had different views of a normal behavior, different excuses to be angry and even different way of interpreting each other's intention. I wanted to help seriously, but sometimes helping them seems to be a wrong choice, bcoz i'm sumhow begin to trust one side instead of both. This story sounds vague, but i couldn't be spelling everything out coz i believe it'll hurt them both.
7. worst thing of all, when everything starts to break down, money too seems to disperse into air in just few days time. Simply to say, i'm REALLY BROKE! Spent so so much $$ on tat darn car lessons, then the booking of chalet which adds up to more than half a thousand.. gosh.. all paying by myself? This is way too much than my mthly "attachment pay + edo" pay LOR..!! (-_-..) where's the $$ for my daily meals? lolx..i really don't believe i'm still gaining weight guys.. tink i should start keeping an acct book in my pocket everyday ya??
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