...i m unwelcomed again..
Writing this during the stay in Pearl-Continental Lahore
nothing much to do in lahore station.. colleagues are nice ppl.. who hybernates!! haha.. then again i din prep my luggage in advance.. now i suffered hunger and boredom in my room.. called ppl for lunch n dinner for both days.. everyone either "eat le/i'm eating now" or "i'm full now maybe room service later" so many kind ways of rejecting.. haha..
for the first time in pakistan, thinking it should be unsafe to walk around. So specifically mentioned (just in case some of them might be interested as well and at least i might find a khaki..) that i wanted to chill out at one of the pub.. Wanted to watch the change of guards at pakistan border.. as introduced by a crew from another airlines.. i thought it was challenging and interesting.. then called J to see if she's interested.. and i specifically say i only wanted to go there.. she said she din wan to go then..
later did i found out from another colleague that this gal J actually went both drinking and the change of guards session with another male colleague .. haiz.. then again.. felt unwelcomed by this kinda gesture.. selfish ppl.. or rather maybe she jus want to be with the guy.. how could i actually get so irritated by this ugly woman..!! arrgghh..
not the first time though.. i think i had the same treatment from another set of crew in sfo the last time.. should get myself immune to it soon..
anyway had room service alone in the room then.. dun really like this holiday here with no one frenly.. no one to talk to.. even my colleague C realised like i've been playing around with the phone calling everyone to talk to.. haha..
facing my lap'talk' with me.. as though it's talking to me.. one sided talking sometimes is unhealthy i know.. but only for certain stations i think.. and back to watching dvd.. hee..
..wakeboarding lessons..
It was after a london flt when few jnr crew got closer, like a family with snr playing the role of taking care the jnr ones.. then eat together, shop together, spend the time together playing, chatting, drinking, and sharing music files.. never felt alone. i like this kinda mixes.. then one suggested KTV and the rest agreed. On the KTV session, one of them asked, 'anyone wakeboard here? i'm gg tmr, care to join?' Without much hesitaion, i volunteered myself.. haha..
I just dun understand, like the day i went registering my diving course, this came the same way.. unexpected and unplanned. So i turned up early in the morning, hoping i wasn't unwelcome. but i was wrong.. they were more than happy i was there.. like me, they find hard to look for khakis for wakeboarding..
Both of them look so cool standing, jumping on the waves.. look so Qool.. but when it comes to me.. omg.. i cannot be more embarassing.. for a start, i slammed into the waters like nobody's business.. keeps slamming myself into the waters that i kinda feel that the coach is playing tricks on me.. haha.. then suddenly towards the end of the lesson and after much pointers from the coach.. i start to find myself standing up effortlessly. It was only when i start to adjust my position again.. there again.. i'm in the waters.. haha..
Got myself injured though.. i wonder was my knees overbent, and i pulled a nerve?? there was this 'klick' sound and the next thing i know.. my knees hurts so much..
Went traditional medicine, had accupunture on my knees.. again, it was my first time.. haha.. i'm always amused by new things.. haha..
...eunff of my own indulgences..time to get discipline!!
Has really been relaxing for quite some time.. perhaps.. ever since i graduated from the MDIS UO.Bradford. For an update, i finally received my transcript but not my degree cert. Finally discuss with the person in-charge who issued me my new transcript and understand that cert may come only after july. Guess I only have to wait. My feeling of being a graduate.. still.. is not there..
It was a long rest.. for 6mths .. (thinking back i thot of resting longer).. I did not plan to take up any new learnings, did not plan ahead of things going to happen.. and i just.. let things happen.. walk the way 'god knows who' guide me, where fate brings me to 2 roads and i just choose the easier way, or more interesting way and then again fate leads me on.
So indulging myself in clubbing, enjoying with the ones i wished to stay beside, allowing myself to be envy by ppl.. tired of being humble.. spend on unsubstantial things that gives a good cover of what i wanna be. Eat when i like, and of coz slp all the time i have extra!! haha.. And i must say.. that kinda feeling's really Qooooll...
Then again, i'm still not the person i really wanna be.. everything's sooo surface..time to get real .. time to get back.. back to the motivated me.. who use to want to achieve everything possible by the shortest time.. of coz this time round i promise myself, to enjoy the route.. let it no longer be a burden.
Things I wanna do..
1 - Start exercising to keep fit/slim.
2 - Finished my diving lessons.
3 - Learn wakeboarding next.
4 - Register for Jap beginner lessons.
5 - Pick up wind surfing.
6 - Self practice piano.
7 - Still.. i would like to club all i can.. for the time i have..
8 - Slping should come last..haha..
Everything's require much discipline and time.
And before i forget, for the month of Jun.. like to wish a good fren st and 2 close sisters jie n ping.. Happy 25th Birthday and may your wishes come true!!
